daniel gets slapped

Pussy Control

could be?

so ever feel like nothing makes sense...

then all of a sudden you get a "could be" eureka moment
where all your ducks seem to be in a row.

that's what tonight feel like.
maybe more to follow later?

crazy

so I'm going crazy... or emotionally crazy? does that make sense.

so in April my uncle, or even my second dad one might say died. It was coming but in all honestly it felt like it came out of no where. My heart broke, and world literally stopped turning nothing else mattered. Slowly I steped back in the spinning world with glimpse of what I saw, what I felt, what I heard and the emotion keeps pouring back in.

so now I'm confused again.

I have memories that pop back in and I just want to cry and generally do.

well now I've been obsessing over Heath ledger... why I don't know

but I honestly in some ways feel like I know him... that makes no sense but I have dreams of him and usually it's images of him before he died and they weren't bad. I honestly think it was an accident and he just shouldn't have taken them all those pills together. Perhaps they were ment for certain times of the day example one he takes in the mornings and the other at night etc. So maybe it was just miss reading or who knows what. Or just maybe he knew exactly what he was doing and that's that. I think the thing that upsets me most is that his daughter was so young, he was so young and just how people portray him as going mad after the joker role. so weird because he said he loved that role in interviews and what not.

oh well

anyhow I just thought I'd mention that.

Fascinated by God

fascinated how everything works out.
God has this plan.
that's it.
that's how everything works.
God plans it.
seems chaotic.
everything is spinning spinning dropping out of control
but God has it, worked out.
the very day, hour, minute and then second it needs to take place.
so awesome.
I love you God.
I love that you heal all wounds and have Patience to wait for us to ask for help.
You are everything, and I love that.
Thank You!!!

I'll eat a human

This is a story about four people named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, and Nobody.

There was an important job to be done and Everybody was asked to do it. Everybody was sure Somebody would do it. Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it.

Somebody got angry about that, because it was Everybody's job. Everybody thought Anybody could do it but Nobody realized that Everybody wouldn't do it.

It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody could have done.

harsh...:(

update from a 2005 post on here

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Chantel Marie Dandeneault
Birthday:	June 11th 1985
Birthplace:	Edmonton
Current Location:	Sherwood Park
Eye Color:	Blue
Hair Color:	Brown
Height:	5"3
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	mutt
The Shoes You Wore Today:	roxy flats
Your Weakness:	my own emotions
Your Fears:	not getting married and having kids
Your Perfect Pizza:	no fish then it's probably good
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	I'd like to have the greatest self image
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	bitch plz... haha jk I just wanted to say that so JK it would be
Thoughts First Waking Up:	noooooooo!
Your Best Physical Feature:	eyes
Your Bedtime:	whenever
Your Most Missed Memory:	camp
Pepsi or Coke:	coke
MacDonalds or Burger King:	mc d's
Single or Group Dates:	group
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	good host
Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	coffee
Do you Smoke:	cigars socially
Do you Swear:	occasionally
Do you Sing:	all the time... haha suckas
Do you Shower Daily:	yes
Have you Been in Love:	thought so but nope
Do you want to go to College:	yeah
Do you want to get Married:	yeah!
Do you belive in yourself:	yep
Do you get Motion Sickness:	yep
Do you think you are Attractive:	somewhat
Are you a Health Freak:	nope
Do you get along with your Parents:	yeah
Do you like Thunderstorms:	yeah
Do you play an Instrument:	nope
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	nope
In the past month have you Smoked:	yeah
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	nope
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yeah
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	nope
In the past month have you been on Stage:	yeah
In the past month have you been Dumped:	nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	nope
Ever been Drunk:	yeah
Ever been called a Tease:	yeah
Ever been Beaten up:	yeah aka samantha dandeneault
Ever Shoplifted:	nope
How do you want to Die:	fast and something out of the ordinary...
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	happy
What country would you most like to Visit:	Austraila
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	green
Favourite Hair Color:	depends on the guy... if he looks like prince harry red for sure, but usually darkish... brown
Short or Long Hair:	once again hard to say
Height:	talker then me
Weight:	makes no diffrence
Best Clothing Style:
Number of Drugs I have taken:	1
Number of CDs I own:	too many to count
Number of Piercings:	5
Number of Tattoos:	0
Number of things in my Past I Regret:
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

what up gangsters

how about I start this again... good great...
like you haven't read about me saying that before.

so today was long.

went to church
taught Sunday school
went to work
played with a kid for 6.5 hours
not quite as much fun as one would think
he cryed for some of it
then I came home
cooked a pizza
ate some of it
refrigerated the rest
drank a Jones cream soda
put the bottle in the recycle box
and later I'm going to a movie.

pretty much that was and is it.

Things I want:

I want to be happy
I want to run really far
I want free time
I want to laugh
I want money
I want shelter
I want to sing
I want to be clean and organized
I want to have children
I want to help people
I want movies
I want to be busy
I want a husband
I want friends
I want family
I want to be safe
I want to be challenged
I want things in my control
I want to talk
I want things taken out of my control
I want books
I want to read all these books
I want to travel
I want to be everywhere at least twice
I want to speak another tongue/
I want true beauty
I want to just listen
I want to be true beauty
I want warm
I want cold
I want texture
I want smooth
I want color
I want sound
I want taste
I want water
I want food
I want I want I want

ultimately I want God. I want him to lead me to what I truly need.



I Need God.